Fight the good fight

Ordinary, Imperfect

  1. Broken

    Yeah, I can’t understand it
    My heart is broken
    My heart is still broken (broken)
    Can you hear me?
    Listen~

    The day when I saw my sad eyes in the mirror,
    it was the day that you left me
    Your eyes look the same, I closed my eyes
    These lips who fell on my known words
    I’m in this pain that feels like a poisoned thorn
    because it’s in my ears

    Even when I sing your favourite song
    Even if I dance in the bright light of the fire
    I can only fill my broken heart with you

    Until I cannot heal it anymore
    Until when my hands are broken
    My heart is broken
    Even if I laugh now
    from these judgements, I don’t remember I’m broken
    My heart is broken (my heart is broken)

    It still remains on my clothes
    the scent of our past memories (was past)
    they made me cry again
    The more I think that my heart engraved your name
    I cry and cry
    It hurts because there is no response

    Even when I’m drunk and carried sweet-smelling alcohol
    even when I kiss someone else
    I can only fill my broken heart with you

    Until I cannot heal it anymore
    Until when my hands are broken
    My heart is broken
    Even if I laugh now
    from these judgements, I don’t remember I’m broken
    My heart is broken (my heart is broken)

    please come back (please come back), please come back (please come back)
    the more I try to forget you, the more I miss everything about you
    Please take me (please take me), please take me (please take me)
    If I could stand back one day, it seems to me that when you come back
    Whoa…~ (Broken.. broken..)

    Until I cannot heal it anymore
    Until when my hands are broken
    My heart is broken
    Even if I laugh now
    from these judgements, I don’t remember I’m broken
    My heart is broken (my heart is broken)

    My heart is broken (broken)

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  2. Turn on the music…right now is…

    Siwan from ZE:A :)))

  3. Anywhere, just the way you like.

    HELLO,

    Do visit http://awillforaway.wordpress.com

    This is also my another blog. These days tumblr hasn’t been functioning well so there are times where I can’t post here so if not you can visit my wordpress, wahaha.

    Sincerely loves, Huichuen.

    :)

    if I had controlled my anger, if I hadn’t turn back from God. Maybe I wouldn’t have done that just now.

  4. Making full use of my last week of Holidays!

    Monday

    QoolQuenchMyDog. 

    Got to catch up at town, coffee bean with Elaine and shopping with Elaine and Gabriel, after which JustAcia with everyone including Selina and Dane. We walked 3.6km just to have our dinner from Orchard to Dhoby Ghaut. I got to vent frustration on the Arcade. Played daytona, ddr, parapara and basketball. We caught the last train home, had a fruitful talk session with Selina while travelled back to home.

    Tuesday

    Met up Rambu and proceeded to buy Sister’s birthday present, which was on that same day, 5thApril! Really walked the whole lot of Jurong Point and finally got what we want. Went over to Kopitiam and have dinner there, got hiccups instantly and seemed infinitely. 

    Wednesday

    Sentosa with my best classmates!! Got serious sunburn on my face and leg, liyi got on shoulder LOLOL HOHO! Gotta much fun there and got so much sand in my short, chicken leg can, have to wash the sand in the toilet under the shower while I got myself all wet, such a nice incident then, thanks Serene for her company down the water! I got all the water splashed on her! HAHA! I nearly had blown away by the mini tsunami wave, thank God for liyi for her rescue! SERIOUSLY EPIC!

    Thursday

    Trying to gain more resources and knowledges by learning new moves and getting down to the basics. 

    Friday

    Met up Ashley and Selina, went down and looked at the dance studio, it is fabulously nice! Watched dance videos after that, had a awesome time with them.

    Saturday

    I have set a goal for myself during the 3-weeks holidays, my aim is to do mass cleaning up in my room and I failed to! I’m GONNA DO IT LATER before Selina come my house! LOL! 

    Dashing off….!! :)

  5. Last Week of Holidays

    Just a quick post, this is the last week of my holidays, I’m gotta end it off well! Have so much to accomplish through a week, now is already THURSDAY! 

    Time goes by fast and faster and the good thing is getting to see my classmates again.

    I need to be more resourceful and knowledgeable! I feel like there’s a limit to everything that I accomplish, nevermind shall continue tomorrow hopefully!

    Zoom off, Huichuen.

  6. I’m always supporting Sooyoung!

    Just from afar I learned much from her. Through tv shows and award ceremonies, she always put God first when she gives thanksgiving speeches. On the other note, she never want to gain fame, even if she has, she knows that the fame doesn’t go to her but God. She isn’t an attention seeker or what, she is impartial to everyone in SNSD, she takes care of them and feeds them with medicine when they’re sick. One last thing is she never gives up! Be it games or specialities, she always gives her ultimate best to achieve what she can! 

    I’m always supporting her, even not getting to know her, I’m pleased that she is known to me. And yeah, you can see the shirt that I wore matches her. She wore it in Hello Baby episode 6, haha I love her for not only her looks but her character as well.

    This is not a lesbian talk but a review on how we gotta love someone.

    Wooots, turning off soon. 

    Heading down to buy my dance pants tomorrow, gotta improve more and finish my to-do-list.

    I’m dashing off, Huichuen.

  7. Too much to associate with..

    Bypassing the streets and the roads, our scenes replay hastily.

    They have reached the final episode of our stories, no more us, no more.

    Why did I have to visualize the reality and wake up from the dream? I was hoping to stay as what I was myself. The dream was overwhelmingly real. This is not the first time, neither the second time but umpteen times that I specifically saw you in my dream.

    Who am I now is how I experienced in the past. I can do the things that I don’t really showcase previously is because I showcase the emotions that I don’t do in the pasts.

    I’m off to shower and meditate at the same time..

  8. That’s an inspiration, not an imagination.

    Nice outfit, nice photography skills and nice improvisation.

    I hope I could be a model upon looking at the photos my friend Cynthia took, sort of a ‘commercial’ for Sony HEADPHONES, geeez haha! 

    Cheers!

  9. Just being like that

    I will divert my attention.

    I will focus.

    I will get tired and sleep better.

    I will forget.

    I will know more people.

    I will learn to let go..

  10. I want to protect you from a future that seems to be captured in secrets.

    I hope you will call me and ask me “Let’s meet up for a meal?!!” and act like nothing happened. That happened after we had a cold war for a few days and out of nowhere you called me and giggled on the phone saying “Eh, eh! Let’s have dinner together, 6pm at jp!!” 

    That was a moment of joy, I was really grateful that we held on to each other. It’s okay for now, I seem invisible to you but I will still look after you- I can’t give you speech of encouragement already but at least a moral support, I can’t stand infront of you and root for you but I will glance from afar ensuring you are doing well (:

    I need to go through a heart operation, oh well don’t think too much. A heart operation for the emotional element. I feel like they are under a major construction, a construction which there’s a need for alot of people to build the bricks and climb the ladders, to paint it with love and colour it with fresh memories.

    Where’s the gracious Huichuen? I prayed yesterday that God will improve on my family relationship and on that night itself, I had a great chat with my mum and sister. God answered my prayer instantly..and that brought me back to 2006-2010 of how I actually grew up and realised my life purposes. 

    In 2011, I will forget everything! I have restarted the whole system in me! I am on the verge of evacuating the chapters in me! Starting a new chapter, with a SMILE! 

    But…still…fragile.

    It’s really something pricking in my throat stopping from what I want to express, I have too much over too much to say and the world tumbles as I make the move, the feeling of playing monopoly…never get to the finishing point and losing to all my enemies, getting left behind doing the housekeeping. 

    Would you update more of yourself and your life? So I could celebrate with you in your good times and pray for you in your down times. 

    This post isn’t for you to understand, take it as my personal diary.

    HAHA.